Two Months Already…

“There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.”

-Maya Angelou

I can’t believe I haven’t updated for two months…

If you think I haven’t written a word for as long as I haven’t updated this blog, you may be right… depends on what you consider writing, really.

October, or when Fall is still sweet and warm enough and the colors vibrant… To me, October has been a source of inspiration for years. But not this year. I was busy with all sorts of family… er… things.

But… I still had an idea for another story. Looks like being on my feet from 7 am to midnight most days can’t stop my tired brain from being creative. We’ll see if I can outline a whole story, with plot(s) and sub-plots, believable characters and all… It may just end up in the “beginning-of-an-idea-for-a-new-story cemetery” (another name for one of the folders on my computer). *shrugs*

About the story I’ve been co-writing, I’ve been thinking of how to flesh it out a little bit, especially the “background”.

Well, writing this post has helped me realize that though I haven’t been writing per se, I’ve still been creative.

 

© AnneT

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Inspirational…

It is never too late to be what you might have been.

-George Eliot

Isn’t it true?

I know it’s the kind of quotes you can find on about anything – you may have it on a magnet, on your fridge. It’s been overused and abused for so long that we don’t really pay attention to its meaning anymore…

We’ve read the words so many times… how many of us have thought of living them instead?

 

© AnneT

Do You Read?

I haven’t had much time to write lately – yeah, I know, life has been getting in the way again… But I’ve been thinking about my story – a lot! -, which is good in my opinion. I’ve been fleshing out the characters, the places and the world they all belong to in my mind. I’ve been writing down all my different ideas…

So all in all, I can’t say I haven’t been creative at all.

Here the weather has been kind of hot lately. Summer has always been more of a season to read than to write.

So, I thought I would ask you what kind of stories you like to read – anyone? 😀

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Slow progress…

If there’s a book that you want to read, but it hasn’t been written yet, then you must write it.

-Toni Morrison

My progress has been slow, slow, sloooooow…

First off, I’ve been spending a lot of time gardening. I’ve had to or some strange “jungle” would have started growing around the house. It’s that time of the year when you have to cut the grass for the first time – seriously, it’s been growing so fast thanks to the sun and the morning dew you can almost see it growing! -, weed the vegetable garden and the flower beds and get them tidy and ready, prune the rosebushes and everything needing to be pruned… It amounts to hours and hours spent breathing the nice warm spring air (here, the temperatures went from almost freezing to summerlike in twenty-four hours, from one day to the next – very odd and a little bit scary too). But it hasn’t been a waste of time. The rich air, the smells of the first flowers – there’s nothing like it to boost your creativity!

So, yeah, I’ve been progressing… but a tad slowlier than I thought I would.

In addition to all the gardening/fresh air, I wasn’t happy with what I’d written months ago, after all, so I’ve been re-writing almost all of it. Not all of it as in “from the beginning of chapter 1 to the end of chapter 5” – only chapter 5. I don’t know if my muse had deserted me the first time (it was probably vacationing in Hawaï, as far away from me as possible – that b*tch!) or if I’d tried too hard, maybe a little of both. The fact of the matter is I remember writing the first draft of chapter 5 without taking a look at the first four chapters beforehand – I had intended to do so after I finished it, which never happened. All I know is that when I re-read what I’d written back then, it sounded so… er… uninspired and mechanical.

Yeah, “uninspired and mechanical” are the right words to describe it. When has my writing become so dull, so uncreative?

Don’t get me wrong – I’m not vain, I don’t think everything I write is always oh-so-perfect. If my writing was perfect, I’d have fans all over the world and more money than a sane person can spend in one lifetime. The truth is, I’ve always been afraid to lose my creativity – I’ve been a creative person since I was a child. I’ve always had to express my creativity in one way or another – if I don’t write, I draw, or I make photomanipulations, or I make jewelry, or I paint watercolors, and so on… So, in other words, with no creativity, I’m not me.

But I’m digressing again.

Concerning chapter 5, I knew at first that I had to cut out part of it (you know, the whole thing about giving away too much too soon). Then I decided the best thing to do was to start afresh. I didn’t delete the first draft – no, I saved the file to a folder and created a new file. There’s always something to learn from something you did wrong, right? I like to believe there is… Or why have I been keeping all those barely finished watercolor paintings over the years? lol

Anyways… I saved a copy of the not-so-good chapter (I’m trying to be positive here… ok, ok, it’s an understatement, I’m shamelessly trying to boost my confidence) and I started afresh. And, you know what? I’m kinda happy with what I’ve written so far. I haven’t been able to write as much as I’d have liked to, but I’ve been writing.

Every single day.

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Down memory lane

“Words are, in my not-so-humble opinion, our most inexhaustible source of magic. Capable of both inflicting injury, and remedying it.”

Albus Dumbledore, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2

Today, where I found comfort before, I’ve only found sadness.

You see, I decided to take a walk down memory lane and visited the site on which, twelve years ago, I posted my first Harry Potter fanfiction (and the next… and the next… short stories, novellas, and novels, ten in all).

Yes, I wrote fanfictions. Those were the first stories I wrote in English. I’m not just a Star Wars fan, I’m also a Harry Potter fan, and I wrote Harry Potter fanfictions during a few of the best years of my life. You may think writing fanfictions is a waste of time, but it was never a waste of time for me. And it was so much fun – I had a blast playing with JK Rowling’s “toys” if you know what I mean.

So, earlier today, I thought I’d take a walk down memory lane and visit HPFF… and I found out it will be shutting down in a month from now. It felt like a punch to my stomach. I started reading fanfics on this site before I ever had the idea of writing any of my own. Even though I haven’t published anything for ten years, I still visit the site every now and then, every time I miss the Potterverse, to read some of my old favorite stories.

Where am I going to go to get my HP “fix” now? I know, I can still read the books again, but it felt different… it felt like there was a lot more to the Potterverse. A lot more to go back to. I’ve always felt a lot more creative after immersing myself in so much creativity. Some of the authors on HPFF were so good…

So, yeah, it’s making me sad. You see, that site is where I met people who made me believe I could write in English, and not just short stories of less than a thousand words. That’s where I met authors of all ages – some are still my friends today. I beta-read for a few of them and they did the same for me. They introduced me to ships I had never imagined I would enjoy reading about… I was always more of a canon ships person myself.

Thank you! Thank you to all of you who made my HPFF experience such a great time! I’d love to write down your pennames… but I’m afraid I’d forget a few of you (and maybe you wouldn’t be happy to see your pennames here, lol).

It was back then too that I started doing photomanipulations.

I also met my fiance on this site…

I’m going to miss HPFF a lot. I’ve just started to back-up all of my stories and I hope all the great stories won’t just be deleted and disappear forever.

How strange… but it feels like I’ve just lost a friend.

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