Down memory lane

“Words are, in my not-so-humble opinion, our most inexhaustible source of magic. Capable of both inflicting injury, and remedying it.”

Albus Dumbledore, Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2

Today, where I found comfort before, I’ve only found sadness.

You see, I decided to take a walk down memory lane and visited the site on which, twelve years ago, I posted my first Harry Potter fanfiction (and the next… and the next… short stories, novellas, and novels, ten in all).

Yes, I wrote fanfictions. Those were the first stories I wrote in English. I’m not just a Star Wars fan, I’m also a Harry Potter fan, and I wrote Harry Potter fanfictions during a few of the best years of my life. You may think writing fanfictions is a waste of time, but it was never a waste of time for me. And it was so much fun – I had a blast playing with JK Rowling’s “toys” if you know what I mean.

So, earlier today, I thought I’d take a walk down memory lane and visit HPFF… and I found out it will be shutting down in a month from now. It felt like a punch to my stomach. I started reading fanfics on this site before I ever had the idea of writing any of my own. Even though I haven’t published anything for ten years, I still visit the site every now and then, every time I miss the Potterverse, to read some of my old favorite stories.

Where am I going to go to get my HP “fix” now? I know, I can still read the books again, but it felt different… it felt like there was a lot more to the Potterverse. A lot more to go back to. I’ve always felt a lot more creative after immersing myself in so much creativity. Some of the authors on HPFF were so good…

So, yeah, it’s making me sad. You see, that site is where I met people who made me believe I could write in English, and not just short stories of less than a thousand words. That’s where I met authors of all ages – some are still my friends today. I beta-read for a few of them and they did the same for me. They introduced me to ships I had never imagined I would enjoy reading about… I was always more of a canon ships person myself.

Thank you! Thank you to all of you who made my HPFF experience such a great time! I’d love to write down your pennames… but I’m afraid I’d forget a few of you (and maybe you wouldn’t be happy to see your pennames here, lol).

It was back then too that I started doing photomanipulations.

I also met my fiance on this site…

I’m going to miss HPFF a lot. I’ve just started to back-up all of my stories and I hope all the great stories won’t just be deleted and disappear forever.

How strange… but it feels like I’ve just lost a friend.



To do or not to do

“No! Try not! Do. Or do not. There is no try.”

-Yoda, The Empire Strikes Back

Forgive a Star Wars fan… I couldn’t resist quoting Yoda!

It just sums up my feeling about what I’m doing.

So, yesterday, for the first time in months – a couple of years, maybe – I wrote during two hours and I didn’t just write a word here, another word there… I added almost three pages to a chapter! Woot woot!!!

The fact of the matter is, I’d been stuck in chapter 5 since like… forever! The two protagonists of the story had been stuck in a car for as long – so awkward! All the more so that she doesn’t know whether she should trust him. lol

Oh, by the way, I’m not writing this story alone. Years ago, I had a few ideas, the beginning of a framework for a new story, and I told my friend (now my fiance) about it as we were skyping. He’s always been so supportive, and true to this, he asked me the right questions and helped me add to the plot. And little by little, it started to look like this story was worth a shot. That’s when I asked him if he wanted to co-write it with me.

You can guess what his answer was. And he’s probably regretted it countless times.

The thing is, co-writing makes it both easier and harder to keep on track. Let me explain: it’s easier because we can share our ideas and discuss them, and it’s harder because… well, it’s not so easy to me when I’m not in control of the story. Does it make me a control freak? Maybe… but just a little. Right?

Well, I guess I should go back to my chapter – the protagonists are now on a small island, and they only have one rowboat… it wouldn’t do to have them stuck there for too long. 😉